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Originally Posted by LoganJoan
Recently I reached out to a family member, and expressed a lot of anger towards them. It was a defensive message, but it was not disrespectful, but it was about the things I've heard him say about me and I just found the courage to let it all out to them. I felt like my family never wanted to see me happy, and I just wanted to express it. & they took it as if I was trying make them responsible for all I went thru. But I wasn't I just wanted to let it out over the years. I felt horrible afterwards, I felt so misunderstood, and I felt stupid. My panic attack came on, I had my mom call those family members and they reassured her that they wasn't mad, they understood, and that it was okay. But now I am having intrusive thoughts thinking that they now think I'm crazy and bipolar. They told my mom, that the doors is always open for me and that they understand. But I still worry about what they might be saying. I still feel crazy. I am having a really bad episode. I have always dealt with anxiety issues, I mean this isn't the first.... I obsess over things a lot. Even within this situation, I started to think what if I start to attack innocent people of the past. What if I'm going mad,? What if people think I'm nuts? This is eating me up. I hope this passes like the other incidents, I haven't felt like this in about 3 years, I have had my lil anxiety attacks but they never was this strong. I feel like I will never get over my feelings. I have breakdowns all day, I replace one worry with another worry that's not true. I feel I'm not in control.
And I am set to move to LA in about 3 weeks, I'm just 25 and I've gotten over a lot of stuff. These past few years. But I want to feel good and normal again.
Anyone has any tips
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I went through a similar time when I was in college and the only thing I can say is that distraction and the passing of time are the best healers I've found. Try not to let yourself get caught up in a cycle where you are having obsessions and anxiety about your own anxiety. Acknowledge the anxiety and the feelings that it causes. State where you feel it on your body. State how, in the present moment, it's affecting each of your senses. Remember that you are not alone in your feelings, and that there are people (like me and others on this forum) that really can imagine what your going through and can visualize extreme terror. Then, try to do something else relaxing or even a little enjoyable. Watch a movie, eat a cupcake, go for a walk, visit puppies at the humane society. Take in the moment and don't force yourself to enjoy it, just force yourself to do it and to know that this will not last forever! Hope this helps.