Okay, I'll try to make this short. I'm 57 years old and have leukemia. My marriage is failing. My husband is an alcoholic and a mommas boy and non-supportive. My mother is always threatening to cut me out of the will if I express myself and tell her that she's hurt me. She uses this all time.

I can no longer stay in this marriage. My MIL has made outrageous, hurtful comments about me and my family. I've lived w/ this for almost twenty years. My husband is an alcoholic. I picked him up when he was living in a basement. I had a career and was doing extremely well. I didn't want to depend on my family. I bought a house and my husband moved in with me.

Unfortunately I got acquainted with the opiate dilaudid and it almost wiped me out. My husband did nothing about the situation. He worked for the woman to keep up the supply she was selling to me. Why? Then he bought land in another state where his mother resides without telling me. She cosigned because he had awful credit and a bad work history.

Fast forward... I got help for the substance abuse and have been clean since 2003. I had to file bankruptcy and lost my townhouse. However, the house I bought was worth quite a bit. We sold because my husband lost his job. We moved here in 2004. He got his job back in 2005 and has been driving about 130 miles and stays with my mother. I had to set boundaries with my MIL and since then she has become hateful.

The problem is I recently found out I have leukemia. I have no job and my husband is making the living. Disability is hard to get for CLL. Stress is not good for the condition.

I've told my mother that things between my husband and I are terrible. He is still staying with her but they are not dining together because I pretty much put an end to that because of some of the things I was hearing from my husband. It wasn't healthy. My mother has called him numerous names and when we first got married had me in tears because she said she "didn't want that son-of-a-***** around." She doesn't get along with my sister's husband primarily because he doesn't kiss her ***.

A few years ago she made a point of telling me and my sister how much she was worth. Quite a bit (which my Father, who is now deceased, made most of). I have been extremely careful with my money. We haven't been on vacation, the movies, dinner, parks ANYWHERE for twenty years. I buy my clothes from Goodwill and everything I have is from when I was working in VA. I had a goal and had quite a savings.

I have told my mother what is going on with me and my husband. Last night after listening to her and conversing about pleasant things for about two hours she says "have Craig call me." Now, why do I feel betrayed? Do I have the right? Just a few weeks ago she called him a two-faced son-of-a-***** so I called her on it this morning because it's been bugging me. Why the change of heart so often? See, my husband works around the house for her and, like I said, kisses her ***. I go between being thankful to him for taking care of her (she's 92) and then just wanting him to stay with his brother who lives a five mile distance further. She doesn't say the hurtful things to my husband; she tells me. It is a burden off my mind (and my sister's mind) that he's staying there three nights a week but it has become so unhealthy. Especially now when I am going to divorce him. I have paid for everything. The rental home when we moved here. I paid off the land and paid for my husband's dream house to be built. I tried finding work out here at first but it is impossible. My MIl is a mean person. What am I doing here?

So, what to do? My husband pretty much has gotten everything he wanted. Me? Well, he provides for me financially and that's about it but he's also very cheap. What do I do? My mother always puts words in my mouth, doesn't listen and I just have never really stood up to her until recently because she throws everything out of extreme proportion. She called me a liar, dumb and said I was going to pay "for what I said?" What did I say, for crying out loud!! I simply asked her why she called my husband a two-faced son-of-a-***** two weeks ago and now wants to dine with him and gets insulted when he doesn't... and he doesn't want to eat with her. He thinks she's mean and doesn't like her. I try and give her the benefit of the doubt, she's lonely and have tried so hard to be her friend but it's impossible. She simply has never liked me I think because I remind her of her father. I haven't been the best daughter but I don't think I deserve this kind of treatment. My sister is the executor on the estate and lives 10 miles away from my mother. Why isn't she doing anything? Why is it always Craig?

There's more but this has gotten to be long. I really need some advice.
I see a psychologist on Monday. I saw a psychiatrist a few weeks ago and she threw SSRI and sleeping pills at me. I feel trapped! and I'm so scared.