T asks why the feelings are painful? On the other hand, she is respectful of my erotic feelings (is present, focused, remains very quiet, keeps eye contact, etc). I'm beginning to wonder if this might be her way of trying to get me to think about why these feelings are painful for me. Fantasies and loving thoughts of others should bring us pleasure, warmth. The disconnect may be that while ET feelings, themselves, are usually pleasurable, knowing those feelings will never by reciprocated is what might cause pain (or does in my case...?) Confusing, huh?