I agree with the others. Good for you for getting out of a bad relationship. I think because of the backgrounds we all share, some of us may see it as "normal" behavior. (well for a long time I DID) And stick it out. Good for you!! it must feel so good to be able to finally walk away? Were here for you. whenever you need. let us know how you are doing.

as for this statement:
How many more abusers must I endure before I am ok'd to just go away forever????

NONE of us deserves to "endure" abuse. You will find somebody who will love you without strings. You will. Keep hoping....dont stop. You are bigger than this problem and will get past this.

I am sending hugs of strength your way. what an inspiration, you are!
Colleen