I'm not a hugger and I would never ask for a hug but I got a hug from my T once when I was going away for almost 2 months. He initiated it, and it actually felt really right. When I came back I think he might have wanted to initiate one but I went fast straight to my seat, not sure why. I wouldn't want to be comforted that way but It makes me think that maybe I would like hugs more than I like to admit, I just feel ashamed.

I don't think you should be hugging or touching people you don't trust or feel safe with. Maybe it's more about learning who you can trust. Like my T says, you shouldnt just let your walls come down, but you can decide who you give the keys to.