I now feel obligated to stick with her and not let her down. She didn't give this off to me and she, herself, admitted that she felt her energy was different this time and more relaxed, but I still can't shake the feeling of needing to stick w/her now that she's told me this.

I certainly didn't get the sense that she was afraid of me going anywhere, given how defensive she seemed to me, but that's neither here nor there.

The timing of it was interesting. For 40 minutes, I ebbed and flowed about how I was tired of feeling like a loyal lap dog to cold, detached women. Women who when I make mistake, are harsh with me and sometimes "punish" me, are forgiven by me easily when they do the same. When I revealed to her that she was one of those women, I felt she was a bit surprised. That's when she told me about wanting to keep me, feeling anxious and defensive and having to work through that with her therapist, and etc.

I now feel like I don't want to let her down. Obligated. I wish she didn't tell me that. Wish she kept that to herself because now I'm doing what she and I know I do...factoring her feelings into my decision. Dang it.