Ts, just go already. We each have one more session but what on earth am I supposed to say when you're both going to be gone for two months?

So we brought back painting and doing things for fun to keep me busy. But I feel like I shoved a big cork in my brain. I don't have the memories anymore, I turned them off. I know they're somewhere just out of reach but I don't remember what they are. This will keep me safe while you are gone, maybe, but when I remember them again how's it going to go? Will it be by choice or will it hit me when I'm least expecting it? Will it be another crisis? Will I lose another job over it?