So I celebrated 300 days SI free on Monday (two days ago). My "anniversary" is February 20th. I just need to make it through Christmas with my family. (Which is how I screwed up last time because I got stressed out... I know I can't let them get to me this time, because I will *not* put up with their abuse)

So these past two weeks have been interesting. Another one of my friends knows now, and he's so proud of me that he put my anniversary in his cellphone so he'll know when it is and we can celebrate. Same as two other friends.

I haven't had a pair of scissors or knives in my possession since I let my friend take them over a month ago. He said if I asked for them, he'd give them back in January when I see him next. I haven't really asked. I really don't need them anymore... when they're just a temptation and not being used for a positive purpose, then why would I keep them?

Have been more stressed lately and the thought has crossed my mind... I admit it. But I deserve better. I am allowed to feel. I'm allowed to feel %#@&#!, and realize life sucks. But I can deal with it in other ways.

Holy crap. I didn't just write that!

So yes - good luck to everyone, stay strong. You can do it.