So hopefully it's ok if I respond

Trauma as a child actually rewires your brain . Your neural connections are still growing, your receptors are still developing sensitivity, your ability to make decisions and process emotions are developing STRUCTURALLY in your brain.

A sense of permanent "wrongness" is a direct result of childhood trauma because your brain IS different. It's not BAD but it requires time and attention to understand.

Also, the objective people in your life weren't really objective. Humans are social primates which means we are constantly unconsciously oriented towards gaining tribal status. When you are an abused/unwanted kid it's almost like everyone around can sense you are a scapegoat. Kids preschool age will avoid a kid they perceive as unpopular

Because underneath it all we are highly evolved apes all of whom want the closest spot to the fire.