Hey spazkatt!!!
Thank you for that intelligent remark. Yes, being 12/13
wasn't a playground for me either, but I made it through the
storm(s).......and there were plenty!!! I suffered from depression for as long as I can remember, even back then.
My mom probably had Bipolar Disorder herself, but denied it completely the rest of her life. She spent much of
it suffering and in turn made us suffer along with her. It was
crazy having to think of ways to make her happy, as my parents were not happy together. However, in those days
you didn't just "walk" out on your kids???? Some people
did, but you didn't talk about that then.
I'm 57, and I've yet to understand the perils that befall you when you're just a child living your mothers' life. I never
did make her happy. She died alone, the way she lived. Afraid always of letting anyone in, or trusting outside her own kind. Very sad. So am I. The difference? I didn't want
to live my life the way she led hers. I GOT HELP!!! She never forgave me for ruining the family name. What family?
She split that in two when she left my father. Old story with
the same ole plot. The children are always auctioned off to
the other parent.
Anyway, nothing helped me thru the next 30 years and finally I find a pdoc who has his head on his shoulders. I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 Disorder a year ago. I have meds for mania and depression. The difference is like night and day for me. As long as I don't abuse it and take it
religiously (aka: everyday) I will be fine. I'm NOT cured, but
I manage myself alot better now then ever.

My point to moonie is: you must HANG IN THERE for yourself, as no one can DO it for you!!! He's young and there is so much to look forward to if you will just get in there and TRY. That was all. He's too young to say he's lived a full life. He hasn't begun to LIVE.

Well, that's it for now.