Hello Scubamaster: Since this is your first post here on PC... to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! May the time you spend here be of benefit.

I'm sorry I'm not really able to offer you any first-hand advice. However here are links to 2 articles on the subject of relationship anxiety, from PsychCentral's archives, that may be of some help as you work to come to terms with what you are experiencing:

https://psychcentral.com/blog/archiv...nship-anxiety/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/welln...-relationship/

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!