I have an extreme belief that people ultimately seek to control each other with that making me end up being inferior to others.
I've had history of mild depression and difficulties bending in with people. Lately though, I really fear opening up my heart. It's as if it's best for me not to do so, especially with narcissists roaming around. It's as if there's hardly anyone I can fully trust. Besides that, I'm currently working on focusing on myself more than I focus on people and feelings.

It's a messy web right now. I get the feeling I (and perhaps others) don't know how to socialize nowadays. There's no order, no clear way of life. Everyone is starting to have their own individual ways.

A therapist is not enough. I also kind of despite him, though I went to him in the first place to take care of the source of what has rolled me into increasing difficulties in life. It may be my family, but I just can't be sure.