Thank you, DodgersMom. It's very hard to get what you truly need from therapy when you have a distorted relationship. I was so desperate to keep him that I refused to get better. And I wasn't really living my life. I've been aware of this for a long time, but I couldn't bear to do anything about it. I feel completely raw right now, but I think things are going to get a lot better once I get past the pain.