I don't know... I guess i really didn't know what to expect? I want to get the trauma out of me, talk about it, whatever, but my T takes it more slowly "keeps me within the window of tolerance" of affect. As much as she can I suppose. I haven't been in therapy for a real long time only half a year or so but i can see this is going to take a really really long time. I like having someone who meets me wherever i am at whatever me I am.
My T is leaving soon so I am meeting with my new one, she is very different, I don't know how this will go.