I had no idea what to expect when I started nearly 4 years ago. I did wonder if I just popped along & had a bit of a chat & maybe a coffee!!!! (How naive was I eh?) I got very frustrated with my T as I felt that he was the one with the 'rule' book & wasn't letting me in on the rules. I didn't expect it to be such hard work & didn't know that I ever even had any emotions, let alone talk about them. Each week my T would ask me how I was feeling & week after week I told him I was fine, until one week he told me I was no longer allowed to use the word fine. I also didn't know what emotional tiredness was either. I didn't realise that I had all these different parts of me who worked quite independently & impacted on my every day life. I thought, again naively, that my troubled & abusive past was well behind me & I had moved on with my life pretty well & was 'fine' WOW, what a shock I had coming my way eh? What a journey I am on though & it's the best thing that I've ever done for myself. It feels like a very cruel process from time to time & still is frustrating at times, but I am very lucky to have such a wonderful T who supports me, puts up with me, won't fight with me & is always so kind & gentle. I love him to bits.