I've spoken to multiple people today - extended hours team, Breathing Space, NHS 24 - but no one seems to be able to help me. All I'm told to do is distract myself but this emotional pain is too huge to get away from. I've to take responsibility for myself and stay safe and that makes me feel like people are telling me I'm not taking responsibility. I was taking responsibility by trying to get some kind of help but I'm constantly dismissed. It's so hard to keep fighting to stay alive through this pain.