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Originally Posted by boogiesmash
My depression or major depression was kicked off by an event. A person I considered a friend, but had a falling out prior to this incident, involved me in a sexual harassment complaint at work. It was a downhill cycle that caused me my dream job, some friends, isolation and a suicide attempt. This was five years ago and I still think of it.
How do I get pass this and live in the present, in the future without thinking of this. It is a constant trigger to my depression.
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I'm sorry that you had to experience that. The end of a friendship can be a very tough thing to handle. Especially if it involves the loss of so many other things outside of that friendship.
I've experienced something similar. An event precipitated a psychological collapse followed by friends jumping ship. The entire series of events is something that still invades my thought to this day. It's been spread out over seven years for me.
I sometimes wonder if there was a realistic treatment a la Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind if I would pursue it. It's a hypothetical not yet possible, but I fluctuate between "yes, I would remove the memory of that(those) person(s) or event(s)" and "no, it's bittersweet, but no."
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