when i went sober i went sober for a year 1 time

then it was splotchy a month here or there... but i wasn't doing hard drugs, just weed and alcohol

when i got out of rehab she changed my medicine for some reason i dont know why...
i think i was hitting another depressive episode... all of the medications i have tried just have not done much for me... i just want to get back on the abilify because i dont want to try any more new meds because i've tried so many and feel like the abilify was atleast doing a little something without giving me weird side effects...

im hoping that getting back on the abilify will help get rid of the obsessive thoughts though because i go to sleep ruminating, thinking about drugs, trying to make myself stop thinking about it, and then i wake up in the morning and like the first thing on my mind is drugs

i dont know what you mean about being agressive on making changes..? she's just now starting a new cycle i guess you can say... starting over... with the effexor... because i stopped taking the saphris without her consent because its a stupid drug

have an appointment with her this week...