I hate that too and I'm so sorry you're going through that. The current state of our healthcare system is such a joke and it's literally putting people in danger. Could you maybe try looking into local charities (churches do a lot), or even start a crowdfund? There are also online resources that aren't as expensive (such as Better Help and 7 Cups - if you contact them they have sliding scale pay for low income people). Wishing you luck and healing. <3

And everyone who can should call their representatives and demand single payer!