Shantel, I've been thinking about Treevoice's recommendation of the crowdfund avenue. I've never used GoFundMe or anything like that, but if you were to create an account that your friends and family could chip in a little bit to and then share on social media, it might net you enough to get an appointment with the professional of your choice. You wouldn't have to say exactly what the nature of your illness was, just a general request.

I don't know if a single appointment would be enough for you, but it might be a helpful start.

bioChE has a good point I would like to reiterate: Don't tell them you're suicidal.

You're in my thoughts and prayers.