Don't feel bad. I've lived my life the exact same way. Feeling adament about something one week, then shaking it off and not caring about it anymore. Many crappy jobs, married 3x by 35, bad decisions and flip flopping all over the place.

I feel hopeless too. All we can do is keep up therapy, meds and try to stay focused.

I know how hard it is. I am so so aorry