Hon,
I too tried therapy with my priest, and he was a very nice understanding man too my age. But truthfully, something this big cannot be handled bye a minister or a priest or any man of the cloth. You need to see a therapist hon.They will have the training in this that you need . And it is an awful violent and crude way to have your life taken away by a person in this way. In my case it was one person and then a gang rape ( my half brother and his friends). So I know your pain. I know why you feel like you are stupid , but you arent. There is nothing you could have done to stop this. Its not your fault its His fault. So please stop thinking that ok? Take care and Hope you will feel better about life and have more hope soon . I am offernig hugs here if you want them.

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