Text exchange with MC:
Me: Hi MC. E-mailed you (I doubt he'd read it before he read text). Been feeling pretty awful since session. Partly fear that you think I’m just a self-centered, self-absorbed person, based on how you were reacting to me today. And that I don’t really care about H (or others in my life) because I can’t articulate why I care. Felt almost trapped by that question. And I know I shouldn’t care so much what you think of me, but...Anyway I just feel like I was a giant failure in session (and in general)...Sorry, LT

MC: No LT, no failure. We were not talking today who you are, we were talking about, strategically, how to discuss/address certain situations and topics. There is a big difference. Like I was trying to say towards the end, this is a difficult thing to do sometimes, and it takes some time to address it. There is no shame in that.

Me: OK, thanks. And I assume it’s a to-be-continued topic. I was thinking about it, and maybe part of it too was I felt sort of pushed aside, even though I was clearly in a lot of pain. I know you had to focus on H, and I understand why, but it was still difficult. (Please don’t say the standard stuff about boundaries and keeping the balance, because I get that intellectually--this is emotional).

Me: I’m guessing a lot of that reaction is transference-related.

Me: What I’m trying to say is that I felt hurt by you today, even though I’m sure it wasn’t intentional and I know why you were acting the way you were. OK, just had to get that out, will shut up now. --LT
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Hoping he responds to that at some point...