I'm not going to beat myself up for being emotionally ill. It's not my fault. It's a medical condition.

Ok, I can't do loving, married relationship. I just can't do some other things, too. Or I can only do some things in small amounts.

Now what?

I'm stuck in a living hell with a husband. I'm coping every day and just trying to be pleasant or get away from him. No more fight in me. I know it's pointless.

Just keep breathing I guess.