Scarlett, there is no need to defend your t's methods. To me, two common traits among people with mental health issues seem to be that (1) we can be afraid to get better and (2) we may stop taking our medicine to see if it is really working.

I just wanted to say that I hear you say it is scary to cut back on t and thinking about needs vs wants with your t seems completely appropriate as you travel along this path. Since this is your path, others who don't understand it may question it, but there are those that hear you and support you.