krzykris101 thanks for your reply. i also relate so much to that Matchbox Twenty song Unwell and also when you say about talking your thoughts out loud that happens to me alot. I remember once i was on a train and didnt even realise i was talking my thoughts out load and then when i did realise i looked around and there were about 20 people just staring at me giving me a look like i was some kind of freak. I got a letter back from social security saying that that the fact i had the ability to write them a very detailed analisis of my condition shows that i am not really that unwell. I can not believe this I am appealing the decision as far as i can take it even if it means going to court over it. I cant believe even the government cant see that i have a disability that makes it almost impossible for me to be able to handle even part time work. I have tried so many times to work but it just gets too much for me. Its the people like that on the train and the people i see at social security that i wish would actually get psychosis themselves to show them what its really like. The government says they try and promote mental illness as something that people should be able to accept when theyre own government departments are discriminating against us everyday. I really dont get it.

Roy