i am directionless...

i dont know what i would like my life to be like...

i dont know what i want to be doing... i dont know what i like to be doing...

i cant see into the future or have any visions of the future... i feel like i dont have a future... i dont have a life... i dont know whats inside of me or what makes me a person... im not a person... im just a pathetic waste...

all i want is to be happy...

im not feeling very well... getting depressed again...

i just feel so empty... alone... im so lonely... i dont want to fall back into the pain, but it happens everytime... i know its coming... i cant avoid it like everything else...

really getting tired of this life... the meaninglessness... the pointlessness... the suffering... never being happy... always fronting... faking... just a big fraud...