So I was SA when I was younger and I didn't want to tell my mom about anything that happened to me because I knew she would choose his side over mine. During that time though I may have played the cards in my favor with the abuser so that I could get the things I wanted as a teenager. When the truth finally came out, my mother told everyone that what I did was blackmail and while I know that is true, I'm still not sure it was wrong? I don't really know to be honest and was just wondering if anyone else ever did this? I know I'm a screwed up person but I felt like this gave me some kind of control does that even make sense?