I was told throughout life...

"You'll never amount to much"

"You are a waste of breath"

I'm not even going to to continue on that front. Anyways. I spent all my life working my butt off and doing everything I can to succeed. And here I go again helping someone else (another company) bud something, make something, basically investing in myself and them to have something for myself in the future for it all to be yanked away and me to be looking for a job again. Just like back when I was a kid... working and saving putting all my money in a savings account just to have mom and dad take it without me knowing and when I went to get it.... it was gone.

This time all because I told someone "No, I can't do it right now I'll take care of it tomorrow".

IM NOT PERFECT PEOPLE! I'M NOT A $&@!NG ROBOT.

Why do people get in such a freaking tizzy when they don't get their way?

I just want people to realize I am human. I hurt, I have feelings. I get sick. I need sleep.

I need someone to hold me sometimes. Tell ME it's gonna be ok once in a while. Let ME fall asleep in your arms.

I'm needy too sometimes.