Thanks for reading, Susan. I'm glad you can relate to all this... whatever it is in the end. It just made me more sure of the fact that this needs to be sorted out.

It's also comforting for me to know that somebody understood what I was saying, when I felt completely torn apart and unable to be articulate. =)

Yes, I've found all dissociative disorders are really hard. Because you can't quite put your finger on it, or need several decades of therapy to do it. And the whole having no identity or a shattered identity thing.. Gee. Wonder how it's ever gonna happen?

Gah. Sometimes I wish I didn't know what it's about, but then again, I don't know if life would be any easier that way either.

It's always okay to blab if it helps you!!