Hi all,

I am sure that I have BPD. I have chameleon disorder, I don't know who I am and I act differently around everyone that I socialize with. I've been trying to break this for years, but with no success.

I get nervous in social situations. I'm afraid to say hi and introduce myself to people. I typically only socialize well with extroverts, or those with good social skills, because I can emulate them. I do poorly with introverts and those who do not have a welcoming demeanor.

I have a narcissistic side to me too. I get angry and frustrated easily. Especially when someone does not talk to me in a calm tone of voice. When I feel like I'm being attacked, I lose it. I hate this side of me and am desperate to change it.

How do I find a good therapist? There are tons of listings, but I want one who is really good at treating BPD/Narcissism, which most therapists unfortunately are not good at. My previous encounter with a therapist was bad, he simply didn't seem to understand how to treat my condition.

Thank you!