I have these thoughts when depressed...which is fairly frequently. I think of means by which I could accomplish it, but most of them involve being in or around the house (I wouldn't want my wife to find me), & I'm unable to buy a gun. I'm not sure if "cowardice," or "escape fantasy" is more appropriate (I've seen both written), but I think I "just think" more than having "actual intent."

I'm an atheist, but I'm currently watching a show called "Preacher" which deals with the concept of hell. It's ironic that an atheist can be afraid of hell; maybe I should just stop watching this show, but I'm hooked.