I'm continuing to notice moments when I would normally have thought about him, and now he doesn't come immediately to mind. I'm feeling a little more powerful and in control of the world around me. Less of it is his.

I'm looking forward to working with a new therapist. I am going to tell the new person right away about my obsession and that I never want to have one again. I've been obsessed with several men throughout my life since adolescence. It's so destructive and distracts me from working on my recovery. I let these people define my identity, and I refuse to get better because I want them to keep trying to save me. No more.

My last session is the day after tomorrow, and I still don't know what to say to him. I usually write long letters to people when something significant happens, but I have no inspiration. I almost feel kind of angry at him. A little resentful. It's anger at the obsession, not at him as a person. The obsession screwed me up for so long.

Will I be able to avoid another attachment? How can I do it?