Well I am a 24 year old female.. now its really hard for me to open up to people or more specifically to find a partner with whom I feel confortable with. After the period I was abused, I never engaged in any sexual activity and still haven't since.. but now after I started going to therapy I have this strong sexual need again and I hate it because there is this part of me that doesn't want to do the talking and getting to know someone but this other part of me won't allow me to have something casual with a stranger.. I was thinking toys and make my sexuality around that, now at 24 I know the traditional life with husband and kids its not for me... I don't know.. is this normal? is it healthy for me to decide just to go with toys?