Congrats to all of you who are making attempts at being sober. I'm still a bad alcoholic -- just one who has been in recovery for quite a few 24 hours. My two serious attempts to OD both occured when I was "stupid drunk." I can relate to what ElsaMars refered to as drinking being like Russian roulette; I view it the same way. For me, my MI & alcohol - not to mention mixing with meds - are a BAD combination.