My family were always big drinkers. My parents would buy me alcopops to drink in house before I was of age. So it was never rebellious for me.
But I got self destructive and had my first episode at 18. Alcohol made my thoughts spin faster and made me think of memories. So I had to give it up for a while. Its not easy at that age and I was very reluctant.
I haven't had more than four ciders for a few months now. Used the proper way alcohol is great to help you relax and socialise.
After my second major episode, I was so lonely and alcohol helped to numb my painful emotions. The doctors said I "abused" alcohol. I drunk everyday, about 8 tins and a half of spirit. It never led to drugs. People say people who smoke marijuana never die or get into fights but it can cause psychosis, so I have never been "high." I am schizoaffective for crying out loud, don't need chemical help. I self medicated with alcohol, for my mood, as I had not been put on anti-depressants yet. I had no idea where my life was heading, if I would ever work again, without purpose I felt useless, unwanted, un-lovable.
I had no trouble giving up the alcohol. I just decided one day I couldn't be bothered and bought some sweet and sickly ice cream and ate whole tub and I was fine.
I can drink sociably and in house I have, one or two so I can chill.
I mean you could either eat ten doughnuts a day or have ten beers and both will shorten your life.
My doctor said I could still drink with my medication, none of my doctors ever question my drinking habits. They would be happy I was on nights out.
But yes MI and drinking isn't wise if you are "unwell" as I have drunk while only stable. I drunk when I tried to cut my meds and it made my breakdown worse I knew I shouldn't have used it while stressed.
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