I'm not prob the best person to answer because I'm not one to cry etc, but you definitely sound like me sometimes.
I haven't discussed it that much but I did briefly touch on it recently and I must be one of the few then that would actually prefer her to leave the room if I was to ask. I just think I'd rather have a few mins to pull myself together, sort myself out and continue, but then I'm not so good with emotion that's prob why I'm a little different! It is nice for me to know that I suppose I'm in control with that, she stays, but if I ask she will let me be, and I know she will wait etc so that's reassuring enough for me!
Like u though, I doubt I be crying anytime soon though!