I dont know whether im posting in the right forum or thread, but it does have to with the intensity of my emotions. Im sorry if i offend people by sounding frivolous, becasue objectively my problem is really a common everyday problem. I am find myself suddenly overwhelmingly attracted to this girl, who is a neighbor of a friend i come to stay with now and then. She doesnt even know my name, although we've interacted over banal stuff once or twice. But now, ive learnt that shes about leave and go live somewhere else, i dont know if ill ever see her again, and i dont know why i feel so overcome with sadness.

I have a number of things that should make me anxious or keep me on my toes right now, like the uncertainty regarding my career, problems with my parents, and stuff like that. I wonder if this fixation on this girl is my way of escaping other real world problems, but i have now come to this point that i dont care. I know you can have a crush now and then, but ive never felt this urgency since more than a decade. I m no longer a teen and i dont know how to interpret my current state. About the girl, nothing can be done, there is no way i can do anything to try to be a part of her life without coming off as a total creep. Its so strange, i dont know anything about her, im not even really physically attracted to her. Its just this burning need to just have a real conversation with her. I fear im losing my mind.
To look at it from another angle, i do feel privileged that i can still feel such strong powerful emotion and it makes me feel alive after a long time, but i also feel like crying out loudly into the wind out of this great pointless suffering.
I know when she goes in about a week, ill move on and live my life, and that time does help you deal with your emotions. But i suppose this is my metaphorical cry to the world, because GOD my heart breaks so deeply.... i cant even breathe.