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Originally Posted by darkestpart
I've only cried in front of my T once. And I wouldn't really say it was a real cry. A few tears escaped my eyes and ran down my cheeks. I had always told my T he would never see me cry - I cry in private, by myself. I thought for sure he would make a remark about my tears, but we just kept talking like normal. (Though I know inside he was doing a little victory dance.)
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Victory dance! That's a good way of putting it. I'm fairly new to seeing my therapist, but I can't see myself ever full on crying. I have a hard time showing emotions infront of others and always prefer to cry alone. Sometimes I get paranoid that my therapist will be disappointed if I don't fully cry, but I don't think this is realistically the case. My voice broke a few times with sadness a couple of sessions back, which was the closest I've gotten to crying. My therapist just paused and kept listening, didn't acknowledge me getting choked up, although I commented it was a big step for me and he seemed proud. I told a therapist friend of mine about choking up and she said all therapists are secretly proud the first time their client cries--it means therapy is working! It was a big step for me to even allow myself to choke up briefly. So the victory dance I think is probably totally true, in the nicest possible way.