Hello Luz22: I'm sorry I cannot comment with regard to your concerns. However I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I trust you will find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

Here are links to a couple of articles, from PsychCentral's archives, which may help you to begin to understand what you are experiencing:

https://psychcentral.com/news/2013/0...ems/55556.html

https://psychcentral.com/lib/survivi...-sexual-abuse/

I'll also offer you links to a couple of YouTube videos that may be of some interest. The first, by Peggy Oliveira, MSW, is on Coping Mechanisms and sexual abuse.



The second, by family therapist Kati Morton, is on how one recovers from sexual abuse & how long it can take:



My best wishes to you.