I often wonder why I stubbornly try and change the dynamics of my marriage, eternally hopeful that one day, my husband will "get" me. I work and work at improving communication, I struggle and try very hard to get back to being the kind of person I was when we first met (much more energetic and interesting, I suppose!). But will it ever have any effect? Will he ever understand how I struggle? Or how much energy I put into basic, everyday tasks?

It does feel like I'm pulling myself through knotholes, needlessly, at times.