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Originally Posted by TrailRunner14
This resonated with me.
I think that if I did start to cry, there would be emotions very open and vulnerable.
It feels like if he made any move or offered me anything in the moment it would shut it off.
I would feel like I had been needy and a bother. Almost like I had done something wrong.
It feels like to just be able to be that vulnerable and open, in the presence of someone you trust and feel safe with, knowing you wouldn't get "in trouble", would be a healing in itself.
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I feel the same way. I think if I did let myself really feel those emotions and cry, any movement he would make would probably shut me off. In fact, him noticing my eyes softening in one of the session in the beginning probably shut me off because I feel like he really sees me and being exposed feels really scary for some reason.
Now I wish I could let it go because I know he is safe but every time I get close part of me just stops me