The last time T went on vacation the first week was really hard for me. I was a total mess. Crying, feeling like he was gone forever, the whole bit.

The second week I became completely numb. It was like I didn't even have a therapist anymore. I supposed I was protecting myself from the pain. I don't think it's a terrible thing to feel numb as long as you process it with your T when he/she returns.

If you feel like numb and you feel like you don't care about therapy right now, then just let it be. Don't try to change those feelings. They are yours. That's something I'm learning in therapy right now. It's basically called-- that's where I'm at. So that's where you're at right now. And that's okay.