t, i miss you already. i totally forgot to tell you about the poetry writer's group that i joined. i'm going to a meeting Sunday. well, that'll be on the list of things to tell you when i come back in a month.

i'm struggling with this break you know. because you said you wanted to take august off but couldn't because of other commitments and then you asked if we shoudl take a break and so little me was left thinking oh you just want a break from ME. well maybe you do. maybe you should have one, you said not to use use the 'd' word anymore but it's probably true, you deserve a break from me and i don't deserve to have you at all. oops i used it twice. i need to stop over identifying with little me and comfort her instead. we DO need to take a break and i know that. sigh but i still miss you like crazy already in advance isn't that stupid? i know i'm judging and i don't care. i love you and i miss you and i wish i could stay with you forever. sigh.