I guess I'm not viewing the emails I send to him as a crisis intervention. I just want him to know what's going on when it happens and how I'm feeling about it. It can feel kind of lonely when this stuff happens. I get what he and you guys are saying though about calling the DV hotline. I think when I'm in the situation, I'm not seeing the danger clearly and they can help me with that in the moment. He's been extremely verbally abusive for a long time, but the threats have only started recently. He got mad at me on Monday and attacked me physically by kicking me and threatening me with a lit cigarette. That's the first time something like that happened. I guess I see why my email about it at 1 in the morning made him anxious. But at the same time, me emailing him provided me with some sense of connection even though I knew he wouldn't read it until the next day. I don't know if that makes any sense or not.