We just emailed about the blurb at the end of your emails. I wish I could say a lot more.

Last session I'm sorry I threw that survey to you and barely said anything. I should have been more polite.

I just had my appointment with my new psychiatrist and I'm really upset. It went badly. Beforehand there was a huge insurance fiasco where the front desk girl told me something wrong and I ended up crying in the lobby for like ten minutes. Then I was supposed to go into that office with the new psychiatrist? You know how nervous I've been about this - we've been talking about this anxiety for months. Now they made me think I wouldn't be able to meet with this lady I've been prepping for, hence the tears. I was so upset.
Then she kept catching me in "lies," except I wasn't trying to lie. I think it's the lithium brain fog that she talked about. In general in life right now I can't remember anything, but in her office I kept contradicting myself. I felt stupid and confused like a really old person. It was very upsetting.
AND THEN she gave me a speech on "calories in, calories expend" as the important part of my weight loss. Ten minutes. She could obviously tell I was upset but kept going. It's so upsetting to me - she's doing the exact same thing that all the general practice doctors do. It's just not true, as so many psych patients know. I HATE speeches like that because of how many times "medical professionals" have told me that weight management is all food and exercise. It's just not.
It was horrible.
And I wish I could talk to you about it.

I wish I could tell you that it was an alright week until yesterday. I wish I could cry in your office about how hurtful it is to swing up and down over and over. We talked about it last session and I just wish I could hear your empathy right now. I wish I could hear in your voice that YOU understand, because you do. You understand more than anyone else in my life because you've had so many clients over the years. I need that. I need to hear that you see that this really does suck.

If you respond to my email about your signature blurb, I think I'm going to write you back with some of this. That appointment this morning was so triggering for me... I could really use some support from the only person who really understands both bipolar and my bipolar.