t, if there is something going on with you, i wish you would just flipping tell me already instead of letting me blame everything on myself. I asked you more than once awhile back when I first thought there was something going on with you and you said there was but that it would be fine. Now I'm thinking there has to be something going on again. This **** is just too off the rails. And I'm left blaming myself for all of it when it might be not me at all. Please respond to my email this evening ok? or tomorrow at least. i feel bad anyway but i'll really feel bad if there's something crazy going on with you that you haven't told me and i made it worse by saying i'm out. i am swimming in waters i have never swam in before. i look to you for help. maybe i shouldn't with this one.