Is this something that has gotten worse while you've been feeling so bad? Or is that even a remote possiblity? Because if it is I think you may regret quitting when you feel better.

Are you sure you don't want to just go IP? I understand promising yourself you wouldn't do that this year but sometimes it is beyond our control. A person with any number of illnesses might want to do that with the physical hospital but wind up in the hospital anyway. It's not something we have a lot of control over. If stubbornness alone could keep us well this board wouldn't have so many posts.

The first time I went IP I knew I was going in for a med change but it was expected to be in 2 weeks after I tapered off my regular AD before going on an MAOI. I found myself spending work thinking how much I hated it and with one patient how I hated working with her so much I just wanted to die and that was how we knew I needed to get in there faster. I came out and no longer hated work or any particular patients, even those that tried my usually very long patience.

I think you need to do what you can to feel better faster. It sucks but that probably means IP if you can't start IOP for 2 weeks. I don't want you to feel even worse and that's the advice I would give myself.