Thanks! As you say I donīt see a way forward to achieve something meaningful in life but itīs comforting to share thoughts here at PC and like we do.
Itīs a big "yes" to the question if I have experienced disappointment in myself for not achieving more. Iīm disappointed in myself and in society and I feel Iīll be standing "outside" society for the rest of my life.
I canīt take classes as I donīt have any study funding, in Sweden you get six years of study loans and then no more. Also, as I live on welfare, itīs forbidden to study and combine that with "living on state money". So Iīm pretty stuck and have been for many years and thatīs why I have very little hope to get any change.
But I appreciate answers like yours to my posts, theyīre interesting to read and itīs also good to read about someone who has been in a similar situation perhaps.
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Thanks for all your replies to my post. To my way of thinking it's very good that you do have some clear ideas about what would make a meaningful life for you. If you didn't, I think that would make if very hard for anybody to help you put that together.
I'm not you and I haven't had the experiences that have convinced you that a happy, meaningful life is not possible for you.
BUT I very clearly do NOT believe it's impossible, even though I know it seems like that from where you are at the moment. And even though my own life has certainly seemed like that to me, too.
It's certainly positive that you keep on keeping on. Posting here. Seeing the church counselor before she quit working. Etc. I believe the ideals of what would make life meaningful for you can give you a sense of direction, even if you can't know for sure exactly what it will be like in reality until reality gets here.
I wonder, from what you have written, if you have experienced disappointment (in yourself?) that you haven't achieved more in your life already? Of course, from my perspective, you're still just barely getting started. And your experiences would certainly provide some wonderful perspective for you, if/when you get a chance, to be a part, as you said, of a process of developing the mental health field and access to mental health care. Is it possible for you to take some classes? They could be interesting and might also help you understand yourself better, too? Just an idea.
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