i was sexually abused by my father everyday every moment he could
although i can only remember from age 5 analysis by psychologists of drawings and poems done at age 5 indicate that it must have been going on longer
im struggling to hear that more of my childhood my innocence my life has been taken away by this monster
i guess i was in denial surely i couldnt have thought writing a poem about being dead was normal

i will never forgive him
or my mother
grandmother
sisters
and brothers

everyday i dissociate
everyday i think of death
everyday i struggle with everyday